Tuesday, March 29, 2005
How can I forgive myself?

It is amazing the end of beliefs and the beginning of knoweldge, the
end of 'me' to the beginning of We as One.
For all my life I thought I was an individual, I needed my own peace,
I needed my own happiness, I needed my own peace, I need my own well
being, I need my special love. That's how the world is constructed;
the world appears in bodies and separated minds, the world appears as
isolation and fear, and the Son of God forgets who he Is, he forgets
that he is not a body or a separated mind, He is life, he is who is
next to him, his own happiness is misundertood by his private
happiness, his own peace is misunderstood by his private peace, his
own love is misunderstood his private love, *** his own self is
misunderstood by his own illusion of himself ****
There is nothing in this world not fully shared, language is shared,
peace is shared, happiness is shared, minds are shared, thought is
shared, a living network, everything is One.
When I loose the awareness of who I am I think I can have a private
interest, the ego thinks there is something it can offer to the Son
by the illusion of himself, something so small and so insignificant
that traps the Son giving him the idea of something valuable in the
illusion. When I hear the ego I hear the voice of littleness, the
voice of exclusion, the voice of illusion, the voice of separation.
How can I be in the world without my part?
How can I relate myself without my SELF?
How can the 'I' live without the 'you'?
How can I be healed without my brother?
How can I have 'space' if all space is shared?
How can I be happy without sharing?
How can I be peaceful without joinning?
How can I be whole not knowing all that I am?
How can I give and receive but not to (and from) my whole SELF?
How can I forgive but not myself?
Finding who I am is finding the universe, finding purpose, finding
value, finding truth, finding life, finding play, finding God,
finding completion, finding my brother, finding myself.
To love my Father is to love His Son
