Living The Christ - Sharings

Being authentic is being truthful, and truth is freedom.

It captivates power to put down words that I try to hide from myself, I know I'm not the only one who reads this posting but I always remind myself that I'm writing here as a self teaching device, I'm teaching myself, convincing myself, telling myself, seeing my own blind spots to bring them to the light. And I don't compromise my honesty in anything I write, otherwise there's no purpose.

I was turned down yesterday, I made a joke and the boss made another joke about me that I didn't like, I told him that I recognized him being a friendly and open boss but I requested him to never refer to me ever with that name again, and that I took that joke as an insult.

Somehow, somewhere I know these jokes will disappear because I won't create space for them or if something comes up for whatever reason it won't affect me anymore, but in any case I can't repress myself, I give myself free expression, repression of any kind is not of Christ, I'm finally recognizing that.

I also found that, being down, or beating myself up, is being inauthentic, is striving with illusions. For example the moment my boss made an unfortunate joke I associated the joke from something in the past, and I was down, and I judged myself, surely none likes when someone is stupid, but what stuck me was indeed an association from the past, I was finding that 'I was that'. ACIM says so clearly that when something annoys me from another, in whatever form, is because I'm finding that 'qualification' real in me.

I'm finally looking at it with clarity, and the light comes, and I'm free from it. There were other situations yesterday that I judged myself, and judgment is inauthentic, is unreal, is a story I made up from the past, an interpretation of events that I made up, from the past. They are ALL unreal. So if I'm authentic I won't judge, I won't crucify the Christ. My brother is my reflection, I am his reflection. I am the Son my Father Loves.

Thank you Father!