Living The Christ - Sharings

Home, that's all I want, that's all I am.

It is interesting to see how alien I have been to myself, how many attempts I have made to find some satisfaction in the world:

The satisfaction by dating someone special that would give me something I don't have.
The satisfaction by having a great job which would give me a great pay and great status, that could actually 'make me' 'someone'.
The satisfaction of looking good, of having a great body, of being appreciated by others, admired by others, loved by others.

All these things without exceptions are icons I've made, and I've been imprisoned by them, the need for these icons do come from an idea of lack, an idea of danger, an idea of guilt, an idea that I can be something other than love, separate and distinct from love.

I was coming to the office and then I realized that I am the ruler of my mind, none can see - think - experience anything for me, however, many times I was not aware that my mind was the mind of God, I didn't know that I had the wheels, I could talk about it but I could not see that I was the ruler.

For the moments I was lost I often thought that I was a victim of something, that actually something could happen in opposition to my will, that being sad was opposite to my will, that being anxious was opposite to my will, that 'being' insecure was opposite to my will, that being erratic was opposite to my will, that being at war was opposite to my will.

In summary; the idea of powerlessness remained in my mind, as a ghost haunting me.

Why? I know by fact that I lost power by finding myself guilty, by finding my self little, a body, vain, small, victim ... I could be anything BUT eternal power and eternal love.

Now I see that I elect my thoughts, now I see that my experiences, my seeing, my hearing, my speaking, my touching, all my perceptions are my thoughts, and that I have made them all. There is a door right in between all these passing thoughts, and in this door is my home, and because it is the only thing that doesn't pass by, that is eternal, all love, all peace, all power, all heaven. That is where I live, what sustains me, what I am.

God Bless my self, all my brothers, all living beings, that in this door I see are myself, One with me.