Living The Christ - Sharings

Waking up free. I am as God created me.

I have struggled with waking up in the morning, as much as I don't want I wake up and the mind kicks off, wandering and thinking. Funny it really seems that I have a big computer machine alien to my order planted in me. I thought I'd rather stay in bed and sleep simply to relax and avoid the consuming excessive thinking. In reality I found that what I was doing was avoiding life, avoid being awake and avoiding facing my barriers.

I made a promise to arrive at work early, I was doing pretty well but last week I returned to the same old pattern; late and lazy to wake up. That annoyed me and put me down, I had that depressive taste of failure, the 'looser' thing.

Today I woke-up on time and was early at work, that definitely made me feel good, I still want to wake-up earlier and work out in the morning, give the body a healthy schedule, experience vitality!

Yesterday was my last day at Landmark, I'm grateful to the lesson I learned with breakdowns, or the gap between the desired state and the persisting state, I was beating myself for having arrived at work late but I forgot that my mind was stuck thinking only the past, and that I am free each moment to renew my possibility and take action when needed, for instance; I go to bed earlier to wake earlier, I meditate in the morning to keep my mind fresh, etc. All these choices are available to me at all time, there's nothing holding me back.

Today when I woke up I remembered my lesson 'I am as God created me'. Wow! What a fuel of freedom and joy when I can truly recognize that, in truth I am from out of time, I can always and every moment make a new choice, let go of the past and old patterns, set up a whole new idea and thought. This morning when I was in the shower I was reminding my self "In this instant I am free", "In this instant I recognize that I am pure and absolute life", "In this instant I recognize that I am perfect, as God created me". God created me as "out of time" so I must recognize that, in me, and in my brother.